The Freedom of Vodka

A few weeks ago I went to a bar after work with a couple of colleagues and ordered a delicious cocktail. It was the first time I’d had anything alcoholic in weeks (and prior to that months) and I figured I deserved a $15 cocktail – fortunately for me it was one of the best cocktails I’ve ever had the pleasure of drinking. As I sipped it I felt myself start to relax and by the time it was finished I was feeling calm, a pleasant numbness that made me care less about things that were happening.

Today I had my work Christmas party lunch at which I partook in 1.. 2.. many.. drinks and felt that same feeling, an absence of worry.

I once knew a guy who said he drank (and he drank a lot) because he liked the person he became when he was drunk. A person who was confident and lacking in the social anxiety that plagued him. Unfortunately, he never listened to everyone else who pointed out that he was a total dick when he was drunk and we preferred the person he was sober.

For me, and it doesn’t have to be a lot of drinks, one or two is fine, I like the freedom it gives me, freedom from the overworking of my brain on things that, ultimately, don’t matter.

Now, as I sit here, the effects of the day wear off and I wonder how I can achieve this same feeling without having a few drinks first.

2 thoughts on “The Freedom of Vodka

  1. It’s good that you are able to relax. I don’t think there is anything wrong with having a drink, just as long as it is in moderation so you’re not causing your body major distress, or like the person you knew and being a major dick haha.

  2. I’m glad you were able to relax as long as you don’t get depended on alcohol. Alcohol and its abuse scares me frankly. You don’t always need it to have a good time and vice versa. Moderation is key.

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